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[wantadistraction]

But that kind of statement doesn't really make us feel better, does it?

Yeah. If you have time, I would like that.

[blindfighting]

Not often, no.

I have the time, and I really want to get out of here for a while.

[wantadistraction]

Good to know I'm not the only one.

Exactly, I feel like I might actually scream if I stay here for any longer.

[blindfighting]

We certainly don't want you to start screaming, do we.

[wantadistraction]

Maybe not in the way I feel like screaming, no.

[blindfighting]

I'll try to be adequately distracting.

[wantadistraction]

I'm sure you will manage. You have been wonderfully good company all the times before.

[blindfighting]

Admittedly, I didn't have a lot of competition in...limbo?

[wantadistraction]

And after we got out when you checked on me.

[blindfighting]

I'm sure I wasn't the only one.

[wantadistraction]

People showed up later on when they realized I was back.

[blindfighting]

...Are you angry at them for that?

[wantadistraction]

I...don't know. It's not really their fault since they didn't know where I had gone or if I was coming back.

[blindfighting]

You know. I've heard emotions are like an iceberg. There's only a sliver of it that shows above the surface. What's underneath, what's deeper, the biggest part of it is something you can't see.

They say anger is a secondary emotion. It's, uh. It's the sliver above the surface. Something we use to protect ourselves when we feel vulnerable. Because we're hurt. Or scared.

[wantadistraction]

I have heard something like that before. What do you think is beneath the surface?

...Are you feeling anything?

[blindfighting]

I'm not gonna try to tell you what you're feeling, Lydia. You've probably had enough of that already.

By now...I think I'm mostly, just frustrated at myself.

[wantadistraction]

That's actually a relief to hear. I wasn't sure if maybe I was being unreasonable or not. Logically, I know it makes sense but emotions often have little to do with logic in most situations.

Why?

[blindfighting]

They're the opposite of logical, most of the time.

Why am I frustrated at myself? I'm the start of all of this. I let myself get killed, which got you killed, which almost got someone else killed. If I'd stopped that one domino from tipping, you wouldn't be going through this.

[wantadistraction]

Which can be terribly annoying when you pride yourself on being logical.

Matt, don't. If it wasn't you, it would have been someone else and I would have still ended up dead. That's just how it works for me.

Well, not the dead part but finding the dead bodies.

[blindfighting]

Not if I'd put a stop to it completely. It wouldn't have had to happen at all.

[wantadistraction]

You will get your abilities back soon, I'm sure of it.

[blindfighting]

Maybe. [ He can't rely on a maybe, though. He's gotta learn, adapt. Be better. ]

[wantadistraction]

[ Frowns softly, an idea forming. ]

I have to go see Donn but maybe I could come by and see you after?

[blindfighting]

Sure. I'll go warm up.

Tell him I said hello.

[wantadistraction]

I won't be too long.

And I will, I'll tell him you miss him too. [ The teasing comes through her tone. ]

[blindfighting]

[ It works. Matt laughs softly. ]

Mmhm. Desperately.

Thanks, Lydia.

[wantadistraction]

[ Lydia smiles, pleased by his reaction. ]

I'm sure he will be touched to hear that.

You're welcome, Matt. Anytime.